I AM DRUMMING FOR KARL BLAU! Just for his little northwest tour- which I am also booking. Washington, Oregon, Idaho, etc. I am so excited to be a part of his project, and to help spread the word of his new album, Natures Got Away. It was just released on K records, and it is beautiful and energetic and so full of good vibes, I can't even describe. I won't be playing all the shows, just all the ones I can. It's me, Karl, and Kevin Erickson, who lives in the DOS.
Band practice #2 is tomorrow!
Speaking of Kevin, he just got the most amazing, lifetime opportunity job- Development Director for the All Ages Music Project. The only sad thing is that, he's the backbone to the Department of Safety right now, and his new job will require him to relocate in November. I am a little nervous as to how the venue will go without him. I know it will be okay, but it's just going to take a lot of work and dedication and someone will need to step up the way Kevin has - because he's literally given his life to that place. It will all work out, and Kevin's job is going to be such an awesome experience.
On another note, school is going well for the first time in a long time. I understand my math class for once, and I'm just really enjoying the subject matter of all my classes. I'm taking Humanities of Africa, Intro to Mass Media, Math 107, and the Folk Music experience. My math class deals with real life situations like savings accounts, managing budgets and debt, etc. and in my folk music class we just play Woody Guthrie songs while sitting around in a circle for an hour. We pass around mandolins, guitars, ukuleles, and banjos. So much fun.
I am also in love, and loved back, which is a first.
Life just seems to be treating me well right now. I have a few money problems, but whatever. It's also a little stressful trying to book 16 bands a month and getting all the paperwork back/turned in on time...but I'm getting paid to book shows. That is all I need to remind myself of to make the stress worth it.
music music music, all the time.
I think I want to start playing real shows with my "Cumulus" project as well.
At an open mic recently, I closed the night with a song that I wrote about rape and sexual assault, and tried to encourage more women to have a voice and play music. I want to set up open mic nights a few nights a quarter called "Take Back the Mic" to encourage more women to play and create a safe space where we feel we can play. Out of 40 people signed up for open mic on tuesday night, I think 5 of them were women. I know there are more women at this school who make music than that.
Anyways, here are the lyrics to the song that I wrote. It's titled "Wolves." I feel like it is one of the most important songs I've ever written.
The inspiration came to me through hearing friends and families experiences, thinking about my own, and then just studying up on the backgrounds of children's fairy tales and the mystery behind the character of the wolf. In the original Charles Peroux version of Little Red Riding Hood, called Little Red Cap, the wolf actually rapes red cap and then eats her. In old french slang, to loose your virginity was "to see the wolf." I also reccomend reading the Anne Sexton version of Little Red Riding Hood.
You cast your gaze
but who says that she wants it?
You look over at her from across the room with those eyes,
but who says she's in need of anything you provide?
You told the man she was asking for it,
when she put on that skirt.
Your right, she must have had you in mind,
when she envisioned the Freudian fantasy of
her own rape that night.
Doesn't every woman just want it?
Doesn't every woman just want it?
Doesn't every woman just want you?
Some come along on your white steed,
and take the princess's virginity.
A girl just loves to be chased by
a wolf in prince's clothing.
Lean over her,
Her red lips shine with tranquility;
a soft and quiet docility;
her silence was made-
to mean yes.
This song is also a reaction to the horrible horrible blame that media, family, and the court system so often place on women after they have become a victim to domestic abuse, sexual assault, and rape. A woman is always supposed to know better. A woman should know better than to walk alone late at night. A woman should know better than to go to a bar alone. A woman should know better than to kiss someone at a party and expect that to be it. A woman should know better than to wear those heels. It's her fault. She was too tempting. She was a tease. She was drunk.
MALE PRIVILEGE. Does a man not understand that he doesn't ever have to consider these things? When as a male, do you have to carry keys between your knuckles as you walk to your car, just to feel safe? When as a male do you have to worry that what you are wearing will make you look like a slut? When as a male do you have to worry about getting raped at a party? I"m not saying these things don't happen, but what I am saying is that the burden is on women, the pain is felt by women, these fears are fears that haunt so many women every single day, and it is never never never a woman's fault or a woman's responsibility to halt her life and her hobbies and her fun and her work and her style to the effect of "she should have known better." Known better than what? Should have known better than to feel safe, feel beautiful, feel confident, to have fun? I guess in society right now- everyone wants the answer to that question to be yes, because otherwise, I'm asking for it.